Procrastination

Hey Dude-a-ma-bobs.

What the hell.

Seriously.

Why do I keep doing this to myself?

I've got all these things I want to do.
I mean, I really want to do these things.
But for some reason, I just sit.

ALL FREAKING DAY. ALL THE TIME. JUST AT THE COMPUTER. LOOKING AT SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE WHEN WHAT I REALLY WANT TO BE DOING IS MY OWN.

I mean, take this example:
On Nov. 20, I went to Hank Green's Gig, and had a night I won't soon forget.
I taped it, hoping to make a video very soon (Partly to get more subscriber's, but also because I had a great idea for it.)

It is now December 5th. I still haven't made it.

What. The. Hell.

Why do I do this? Why is it that I can't just sit down and take care of the things I want to do?
Why do I care so much about other people's lives at the point that I can't fully live my own?

I want to scream at this.
I want to cry.
I want to stop forgetting my life.